Testimony and Experience

Your Marriage Can Become Your Idol

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“Father God, please guide me as I write this article based on Your Word. Help me to write this to glorify You, and let Your words bring clarity to those who seek You. May Your truth help people discern and embrace correct beliefs. I pray and seek everything in the name of our Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ. Amen.”

Hi there my Brothers and Sisters in Christ! My heart aches as I write these words, but I feel compelled to share my story. For years, I thought I was being a good Christian husband, pouring everything I had into my marriage. Little did I realize that in my quest for marital perfection, I had created an idol that was slowly pushing God out of His rightful place in my life.


The Bible warns us in Exodus 20:3, “You shall have no other gods before me.” Yet, how easily we can turn even good things into idols! My marriage, a beautiful gift from God, had become my ultimate source of identity, purpose, and fulfilment. I had forgotten the words of Jesus in Matthew 22:37-38, “Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. This is the first and greatest commandment.”


Don’t misunderstand me – loving your spouse is not a sin. In fact, it’s commanded (Ephesians 5:25). But when that love surpasses our love for God, we’ve crossed a dangerous line. I found myself obsessed with being the perfect husband, taking pride in my abilities to fulfil my duties. I built my sense of identity, belonging, and purpose around my role as a spouse rather than as a child of God. Proverbs 16:18 warns, “Pride goes before destruction, a haughty spirit before a fall.” And fall I did. Despite my best efforts, I failed miserably. My marriage began to crumble, and I was left feeling utterly hopeless and helpless.


For six long months, I prayed fervently for God to fix my breaking marriage. But in His infinite wisdom, God was more interested in fixing me. He wanted to address the root of the problem – my misplaced worship and reliance on my own strength instead of His. As I wrestled with God, I was reminded of Jeremiah 17:5,7: “Cursed is the one who trusts in man, who draws strength from mere flesh and whose heart turns away from the Lord… But blessed is the one who trusts in the Lord, whose confidence is in him.” I realized that I had been trying to do everything in my own strength, forgetting that apart from Christ, I can do nothing (John 15:5). My sense of failure was overwhelming, but it drove me to my knees in repentance.


Today, I stand before you, humbled and broken, yet filled with hope. I’m learning to surrender my marriage, my identity, and my purpose to God. I’m repenting for replacing Him with something He ordained but never intended to take His place. If you find yourself in a similar situation, take heart. Our God is the God of the impossible (Luke 1:37). He can restore what seems irreparably broken – not just our marriages, but our hearts and our relationship with Him. Let us remember the words of Psalm 73:25-26: “Whom have I in heaven but you? And earth has nothing I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.”


As I continue on this journey of restoration, I cling to these truths. I invite you to join me in examining your heart. Have you, like me, allowed your marriage or any other good thing to become an idol? Let’s turn back to our first love, allowing God to take His rightful place on the throne of our hearts. In our helplessness, we find His strength. In our brokenness, we find His healing. And in surrendering our idols, we find true fulfilment in Him alone.

Without Christ, I Am Nothing

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“Father God, please guide me as I write this article based on Your Word. Help me to write this to glorify You, and let Your words bring clarity to those who seek You. May Your truth help people discern and embrace correct beliefs. I pray and seek everything in the name of our Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ. Amen.”

Hi there my Brothers and Sisters in Christ! When I reflect on who I am, I see nothing but a wretched sinner. I can’t escape the overwhelming sense that everyone around me, no matter their flaws or mistakes, is somehow better than me. Their sins seem so small, so trivial, compared to the mountain of guilt and shame I carry. I have sinned, over and over again, falling into the same traps, repeating the same mistakes. Each time, I feel the crushing weight of my failure, the despair of knowing that I have once again fallen short of what God has called me to be. The shame is unbearable, and yet, in the depths of my despair, I find myself doing the only thing I know how to do—I run back to God, like a beggar who has nothing left, desperate for even a crumb of His mercy.

I think of the parable of the lost sheep in Luke 15:4-7, where Jesus describes the shepherd who leaves ninety-nine sheep to find the one that is lost. I am that lost sheep. I have wandered so far from the safety of His fold, strayed into dangerous and sinful places, yet He comes looking for me, again and again. The shepherd doesn’t scold or punish the lost sheep; instead, He rejoices when He finds it and carries it home on His shoulders. This is how God treats me. Despite my repeated failures, He doesn’t turn His back on me. Instead, He seeks me out, He finds me in my lostness, and He brings me back into His embrace. Not because I deserve it—oh, I know how little I deserve it—but because His love is far greater than my sin.

Paul’s words in Romans 7:24-25 speak directly to my heart: “What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body that is subject to death? Thanks be to God, who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord!” I am acutely aware of my wretchedness. I know that no amount of good deeds, no amount of striving on my part, can ever make me worthy. It is only through Jesus Christ that I am delivered, only through His sacrifice that I am saved.

I am totally undeserving of His grace. If I lived a million years, and did every good work imaginable, it would never be enough to earn His favor. But that’s the beauty of grace—it’s not something I can earn. It’s not something I deserve. It’s a gift, freely given, from a God who loves me more than I can comprehend. Like a beggar who knows he has no right to ask for anything, I grasp onto this grace with everything I have, knowing that without it, I have nothing. It is my only hope, my only lifeline.

I often find myself drawn to the story of the prodigal son in Luke 15:11-32. Like the prodigal, I have squandered the gifts that God has given me. I have turned away from Him, choosing my own path, chasing after things that only led to emptiness and despair. I have hit rock bottom, found myself in the mire of my own making, and realized that the only place I could turn was back to the Father I had rejected. And just like the prodigal, when I finally come to my senses and return to Him, I don’t find anger or condemnation. Instead, I find a Father who has been waiting for me all along, who runs to meet me, who embraces me, and who restores me. This is the nature of God’s love—undeserved, unearned, and yet, freely given.

But I know that this journey of returning to God, of being transformed by His grace, is a process. It doesn’t happen overnight. I am not instantly made perfect. I struggle, I fall, and I get up again. I sin, I repent, and I seek His forgiveness. And each time, God washes me clean, reminding me that my identity is not found in my sin, but in Him. It’s a daily battle, a daily choice to come back to Him, to allow Him to shape me into who He has called me to be.

When I say I am a Christian, I am not claiming to be righteous or blameless on my own. In fact, I know that I have no righteousness of my own. The accuser may point out my many sins, but he has no power over me because my sins have been taken up by Christ. Isaiah 1:18 speaks to this amazing truth: “Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red as crimson, they shall be like wool.” This is the reality of what Christ has done for me. I am blameless not because of anything I have done, but because Christ took my place, bore my sins, and washed me clean with His blood.

And though He has every reason to cast me aside, He does not. Instead, He holds me close, He calls me His own, and He reminds me that I am loved. This is the miracle of grace—that God would look at someone as wretched as me and call me His child.

So when I declare that I am a Christian, I am not boasting of my own worthiness or goodness. I am simply acknowledging that without Christ, I am nothing. My identity, my hope, my very life is bound up in Him. I am a sinner saved by grace, a lost sheep found by a loving Shepherd, a prodigal welcomed home by a Father who never stopped loving me.

CHRISTIAN means “Without Christ, I Am Nothing.” This is who I am. This is my identity in Christ. I am not perfect, I am not sinless, but I am His, and that is enough.

My Ungrateful Heart

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“Father God, please guide me as I write this article based on Your Word. Help me to write this to glorify You, and let Your words bring clarity to those who seek You. May Your truth help people discern and embrace correct beliefs. I pray and seek everything in the name of our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. Amen.”

Hi there my Brothers and Sisters in Christ! In our spiritual journey, we often experience moments of profound grace and divine intervention. Yet, amidst these blessings, we may find ourselves slipping into ungratefulness, failing to acknowledge the hand of God in our lives. The story of the ten lepers in Luke 17:11-19 serves as a powerful reminder of the importance of gratitude and the dangers of taking God’s blessings for granted.

The Miracle of Healing

As Jesus traveled along the border between Samaria and Galilee, He encountered ten men who had leprosy. They stood at a distance and cried out, “Jesus, Master, have pity on us!” (Luke 17:13). Leprosy was a devastating disease, causing physical disfigurement and social isolation. These men were desperate for healing.

Jesus, full of compassion, responded to their cries. He instructed them, “Go, show yourselves to the priests.” (Luke 17:14). As the ten lepers obeyed Jesus’ command, they were miraculously healed on their way to the priests.

The Response to Healing

 The healing of the ten lepers was a moment of incredible grace and divine power. Yet, out of the ten, only one returned to express gratitude. He threw himself at Jesus’ feet and thanked Him, and he was a Samaritan. Jesus asked, “Were not all ten cleansed? Where are the other nine? Has no one returned to give praise to God except this foreigner?” (Luke 17:17-18).

This response from Jesus highlights a troubling reality: the majority of those who received this miraculous healing failed to return and give thanks. This story challenges us to reflect on our own attitudes and behaviors as children of God. How often do we receive God’s blessings without offering our gratitude in return?

The Heart of Gratitude

 Gratitude is more than a polite response; it is a posture of the heart. It acknowledges our dependence on God and our recognition of His sovereignty in our lives. The one leper who returned to thank Jesus exemplified this heart of gratitude. He recognized that his healing was not just a physical restoration but a divine act of mercy.

When we cultivate a heart of gratitude, we align ourselves with God’s will and open our eyes to His continual presence and blessings in our lives. Colossians 3:15-17 encourages us to let the peace of Christ rule in our hearts and to be thankful. This thankfulness should permeate every aspect of our lives, from our prayers to our daily interactions.

The Consequences of Ungratefulness

 Ungratefulness can have severe spiritual consequences. It can lead to a hardened heart, spiritual complacency, and a diminished relationship with God. When we fail to acknowledge God’s blessings, we distance ourselves from Him and miss out on the deeper joy and peace that comes from a grateful heart.

Romans 1:21 warns us of this danger: “For although they knew God, they neither glorified him as God nor gave thanks to him, but their thinking became futile and their foolish hearts were darkened.” Ungratefulness can darken our hearts and minds, leading us away from the light of God’s truth and love.

Cultivating a Grateful Heart

 So how do we combat ungratefulness? Here are a few practical steps to cultivate a heart of gratitude:

Daily Reflection: Take time each day to reflect on God’s blessings. Write them down in a gratitude journal and thank God for each one.

 Prayer of Thanksgiving: Incorporate prayers of thanksgiving into your daily routine. Thank God for the big miracles and the small, everyday blessings.

 Acts of Gratitude: Express your gratitude through acts of kindness. Serve others as a way of showing your thankfulness to God.

 Remembering Past Blessings: Recall past instances of God’s faithfulness and provision. Let these memories fuel your gratitude in the present.

 Scripture Meditation: Meditate on scriptures that emphasize gratitude, such as Psalm 100:4, “Enter his gates with thanksgiving and his courts with praise; give thanks to him and praise his name.”


Wrapping Up

 The story of the ten lepers in Luke 17:11-19 serves as a powerful reminder of the importance of gratitude in our lives. As children of God, we are called to recognize and acknowledge His blessings continually. Let us not fall into the trap of entitlement or spiritual blindness but instead cultivate a heart of gratitude that draws us closer to our Heavenly Father.

May we be like the one leper who returned to give thanks, recognizing that every blessing we receive is a gift of God’s grace. And in our gratitude, may we find joy, peace, and a deeper connection with the One who loves us beyond measure.

Jesus Wept

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“Father God, please guide me as I write this article based on Your Word. Help me to write this to glorify You, and let Your words bring clarity to those who seek You. May Your truth help people discern and embrace correct beliefs. I pray and seek everything in the name of our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. Amen.”

Hi there my Brothers and Sisters in Christ! There are moments in life when the weight of our burdens becomes overwhelming, and we find ourselves crying without any clear reason. Every little thing seems to trigger the tears, and even those tears feel minuscule compared to the unrecognizable pain residing deep within us. It’s in these moments of intense emotional turmoil that we may feel utterly alone, as if no one truly understands the depth of our suffering. However, there’s a profound comfort in knowing that Jesus, our Savior, understands our pain and sorrow intimately. The shortest verse in the Bible, John 11:35, encapsulates this powerful truth: “Jesus wept.”

The Depth of Jesus’ Compassion

The story behind this verse is deeply moving. Jesus arrived in Bethany to find that His dear friend Lazarus had died. Martha and Mary, Lazarus’s sisters, were heartbroken, and their grief was palpable. When Jesus saw Mary weeping, and the mourners with her, He was deeply moved in spirit and troubled. It was in this moment that Jesus wept. Despite knowing that He would soon raise Lazarus from the dead, Jesus still shared in their sorrow and pain.

This act of weeping reveals the profound depth of Jesus’ compassion and empathy. He wasn’t distant or detached from human suffering. Instead, He entered into it fully. Isaiah 53:3 describes Jesus as “a man of sorrows, and acquainted with grief.” He bore our griefs and carried our sorrows, sharing in our pain and heartache. His tears were not just a response to the loss of His friend but also an expression of His profound love for humanity and the suffering we endure.

Our Tears Matter to God

When we are overwhelmed by our own sorrows, it’s comforting to know that our tears matter to God. Psalm 56:8 tells us, “You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book.” Every tear we shed is noticed by our Heavenly Father. They are precious to Him, and He holds them close, understanding the depth of our pain.

In a season of my life, I found myself crying uncontrollably, often without any clear reason. The pain inside was immense, and I couldn’t understand why I was so overwhelmed. During this difficult time, I came across the song “He Knows” by Jeremy Camp. The lyrics resonated deeply with me, and I found myself crying even more as I listened. But these were not just tears of sorrow; they were also tears of release and surrender.

A Bold Prayer of Surrender

The song led me to pray a bold prayer, one that I had been hesitant to pray for a long time. I decided to give up everything that was weighing me down, to lay all my burdens at the feet of Jesus. I realized that I didn’t have to carry the weight of my pain alone. Jesus invites us to come to Him with our burdens. In Matthew 11:28-30, He says, “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

This invitation is an incredible promise. When we bring our sorrows and burdens to Jesus, He promises to give us rest. He doesn’t minimize our pain or dismiss our tears. Instead, He offers us His presence and His peace, reassuring us that we are not alone.

The Transformative Power of Surrender

In my own journey, surrendering my pain to Jesus was a transformative experience. It didn’t mean that all my problems were instantly solved or that my pain disappeared overnight. But it did mean that I no longer carried the burden alone. 1 Peter 5:7 encourages us to “cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.” When we surrender our burdens to Jesus, we experience a profound shift. We move from trying to manage our pain on our own to trusting that God is with us, carrying our load and giving us strength.

Through this process, I found comfort in the fact that Jesus understands my tears and my pain. Hebrews 4:15-16 reminds us, “For we do not have a high priest who is unable to empathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are—yet he did not sin. Let us then approach God’s throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.” Jesus, our High Priest, empathizes with our weaknesses and invites us to come to Him with confidence, knowing that we will receive mercy and grace.

A New Perspective on Tears

As I continued to pray and surrender my pain to God, I began to see my tears in a new light. They were no longer just a sign of my suffering but also a symbol of my trust in God. Psalm 30:5 tells us, “Weeping may stay for the night, but rejoicing comes in the morning.” While our weeping may last for a season, God promises that joy will come. Our tears are temporary, but His joy is eternal.

Moreover, our tears can also be a testimony to others. They show that we are human, that we feel deeply, and that we rely on God in our moments of weakness. 2 Corinthians 1:3-4 says, “Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God.” When we experience God’s comfort in our pain, we are equipped to comfort others who are going through similar struggles.

Finding Strength in Weakness

Ultimately, the experience of crying uncontrollably and feeling overwhelmed by pain led me to a deeper dependence on God. I realized that in my weakness, His strength is made perfect. 2 Corinthians 12:9-10 states, “But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”

This paradoxical truth is at the heart of the Christian faith. In our moments of deepest sorrow and greatest weakness, we encounter the transformative power of God’s grace. We find that His strength sustains us, His love surrounds us, and His peace comforts us.

Wrapping up

If you find yourself in a season of unexplainable tears and overwhelming pain, remember that Jesus wept. He understands your sorrow and invites you to bring your burdens to Him. Allow yourself to cry, to feel, and to grieve, knowing that your tears are precious to God. And as you surrender your pain to Him, trust that He will give you rest and comfort. Your tears may last for the night, but joy will come in the morning. Jesus, the man of sorrows, walks with you in your suffering and promises to transform your pain into joy. Trust in Him, for He knows your pain and loves you deeply.

Why Satan Wants to Isolate You

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“Father God, please guide me as I write this article based on Your Word. Help me to write this to glorify You, and let Your words bring clarity to those who seek You. May Your truth help people discern and embrace correct beliefs. I pray and seek everything in the name of our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. Amen.”

Hi there my Brothers and Sisters in Christ! Feeling isolated can be one of the most challenging and painful experiences we endure. Whether it’s physical separation, emotional withdrawal, or a spiritual sense of loneliness, isolation can leave us feeling vulnerable, disconnected, and weary. As Christians, we understand that this state of isolation is not only undesirable but also dangerous to our spiritual well-being. The Bible speaks profoundly about the importance of community, and there’s a reason for this. Satan, our adversary, seeks to isolate us because isolation makes us easier targets for his attacks. In contrast, God desires for us to live in community, surrounded by fellow believers who can support, encourage, and uplift us.

The Tactics of Isolation

Satan’s strategy to isolate us is subtle and insidious. He knows that when we are alone, we are more susceptible to his lies and deceptions. Here are some reasons why Satan aims to isolate us:

1. Vulnerability to Deception: When we are isolated, we become more vulnerable to Satan’s lies. Without the counsel and encouragement of fellow believers, we can easily fall prey to thoughts of unworthiness, doubt, and despair. Satan whispers lies into our hearts, telling us that we are alone, unloved, and forgotten. Without a community to remind us of the truth of God’s love and promises, these lies can take root and grow.

2. Weakening of Faith: Community is a vital source of strength for our faith. When we gather with other believers, we share our experiences, testimonies, and struggles. This sharing helps to strengthen our faith and reminds us of God’s faithfulness. In isolation, our faith can weaken as we lack the reinforcement that comes from seeing God’s work in the lives of others.

3. Increased Temptation: Temptation is often strongest when we are alone. Without accountability, it becomes easier to fall into sin. Community provides a network of accountability, helping us to stay on the path of righteousness. In isolation, we lack this support, making it easier for Satan to lead us astray.

4. Emotional and Spiritual Drain: Isolation can lead to emotional and spiritual exhaustion. When we are isolated, we carry our burdens alone, which can be overwhelming. Community allows us to share our burdens and receive support and encouragement from others, preventing burnout and despair.

The Power of Community

In contrast to Satan’s desire to isolate us, God created us to live in community. The Bible is filled with references to the importance of community and fellowship. Here are some reasons why God wants us to be in community:

1. Support and Encouragement: In Hebrews 10:24-25, we are encouraged to “consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds, not giving up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but encouraging one another—and all the more as you see the Day approaching.” Community provides us with the support and encouragement we need to persevere in our faith and live out our calling.

2. Accountability: Proverbs 27:17 states, “As iron sharpens iron, so one person sharpens another.” Community provides accountability, helping us to stay on the path of righteousness and avoid the pitfalls of sin. Through mutual accountability, we can grow in our faith and become more like Christ.

3. Shared Wisdom and Experience: In a community, we benefit from the collective wisdom and experience of others. Proverbs 11:14 tells us, “For lack of guidance a nation falls, but victory is won through many advisers.” By sharing our experiences and insights, we can learn from one another and grow in our understanding of God’s will.

4. Bearing Each Other’s Burdens: Galatians 6:2 instructs us to “Carry each other’s burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ.” In a community, we can share our struggles and receive help and support from others. This mutual burden-bearing lightens our load and strengthens our faith.

5. Reflecting God’s Love: Jesus said, “By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another” (John 13:35). In community, we have the opportunity to demonstrate God’s love to one another and to the world. Our love for each other is a powerful testimony of God’s grace and truth.

The Consequences of Isolation

When we feel isolated, the effects can be profound and far-reaching. Isolation can lead to:

1. Spiritual Drift: Without the anchor of community, our faith can drift. We may find ourselves neglecting prayer, Bible study, and worship, leading to a gradual weakening of our spiritual life.

2. Increased Anxiety and Depression: Isolation can exacerbate feelings of anxiety and depression. Without the support and encouragement of others, our struggles can feel overwhelming and insurmountable.

3. Loss of Purpose: In community, we find purpose and direction as we serve others and fulfill our calling. In isolation, we may lose sight of our purpose and feel aimless and unfulfilled.

4. Greater Susceptibility to Temptation: Without accountability, we are more likely to give in to temptation and sin. Isolation removes the protective barrier of accountability, making us more vulnerable to Satan’s attacks.

Embracing Community

To combat isolation and experience the fullness of life that God desires for us, we must actively seek out and engage in community. Here are some practical steps to embrace community:

1. Join a Church: Find a local church where you can worship, serve, and grow alongside other believers. Participate in church activities and small groups to build meaningful relationships.

2. Seek Out Fellowship: Look for opportunities to connect with other Christians outside of church. Join a Bible study group, prayer group, or Christian organization to build a network of support and accountability.

3. Be Vulnerable: Share your struggles and burdens with trusted friends and mentors. Vulnerability fosters deeper connections and allows others to support and pray for you.

4. Serve Others: Get involved in serving your community. Serving others not only helps those in need but also builds connections and fosters a sense of purpose and fulfillment.

5. Stay Connected: In our digital age, staying connected is easier than ever. Use technology to stay in touch with friends and family, participate in online Bible studies, and engage with Christian communities on social media.

Wrapping up

Satan wants to isolate us because he knows that isolation makes us vulnerable to his attacks. In isolation, we are more susceptible to deception, temptation, and spiritual drift. In contrast, God desires for us to live in community, where we can find support, encouragement, accountability, and shared wisdom. By embracing community, we can combat the dangers of isolation and experience the fullness of life that God intends for us. Let us seek out and engage in community, reflecting God’s love to one another and to the world.

The Conceited Me

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“Father God, please guide me as I write this article based on Your Word. Help me to write this to glorify You, and let Your words bring clarity to those who seek You. May Your truth help people discern and embrace correct beliefs. I pray and seek everything in the name of our Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ. Amen.”

Hi there my Brothers and Sisters in Christ! As I sit down to reflect on my own journey with Christ, one thing stands out as a glaring reminder of the dangers of conceit in our Christian lives. I’m not ashamed to admit that for a long time, pride and self-righteousness masked themselves under the guise of “spiritual maturity” and “faithfulness.” In reality, they were choking the very life out of my relationship with God.

Looking back, it’s as if I was blinded by the fog of conceit. My self-perceived “success” in various areas of Christian service and ministry created a false sense of security, making me believe that I was above correction or criticism. I became so enamoured with my own perceived wisdom and abilities that I failed to listen to the gentle whispers of the Holy Spirit.

Conceit is a subtle yet insidious enemy that can creep into our lives unnoticed. It’s the notion that we are better than others, more knowledgeable, more spiritual, or simply more deserving of God’s favour. This mindset leads us down a path of self-reliance, where we trust in ourselves rather than Christ.

In my case, conceit led me to prioritize personal achievement over genuine humility and dependence on God. I began to focus on external validation – the praise and admiration of others – rather than seeking the approval of my heavenly Father. The more I sought to be recognized and esteemed by men, the farther I drifted from the simplicity and purity of devotion.

As a result, my Christian life became stagnant and barren. My prayers felt like mere exercises in self-justification, rather than heartfelt cries for mercy and guidance. My relationships with others suffered as I became increasingly isolated and self-absorbed. And worst of all, my relationship with God grew cold and distant, as if the very presence of His glory was shrouded by a veil of pride.

But praise be to our glorious God! In His infinite wisdom and mercy, He saw fit to intervene in my life, bringing me low and breaking my fall. It began when I encountered Scripture that pierced my heart like a sword:

“Pride goes before destruction, a haughty spirit before a fall.” (Proverbs 16:18)

“God resists the proud but gives grace to the humble.” (James 4:6)

These words, once mere abstract concepts, became a searing rebuke, exposing the deceit and self-deception that had taken up residence in my heart. I realized that my attempts to present myself as spiritually superior were nothing short of an affront to God’s sovereignty.

In a moment of profound conviction, I surrendered my pride and asked for forgiveness. It was as if the weight of my conceit had been lifted off my shoulders, freeing me from the shackles of self-righteousness. For the first time in years, I felt the warmth of God’s love and acceptance, untainted by human praise or recognition.

As I look back on that journey, I am reminded that conceit is a thief that can steal our joy, our peace, and our very faith. It is a subtle siren song that lures us away from the cross, convincing us that we are worthy of God’s love and acceptance without the need for sacrifice or humility.

But praise be to Jesus! He knows the snares of conceit all too well, having faced the ultimate temptation in the wilderness. And yet, He emerged victorious, His character unblemished by even a hint of pride.

In His mercy, He offers us the same opportunity for redemption. Will you join me in this journey toward humility and dependence on God? Will you let go of your need for external validation and trust in the One who truly knows your heart?

As we walk together in this pilgrimage, let us heed the wise words of Paul: “Do nothing from selfish ambition or conceit, but in humility count others more significant than yourselves.” (Philippians 2:3)

May our lives be a testament to the transformative power of humility, as we seek to honor Christ and magnify His glory in our daily walk.

The Greatest Gift from God is God Himself

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“Father God, please guide me as I write this article based on Your Word. Help me to write this to glorify You, and let Your words bring clarity to those who seek You. May Your truth help people discern and embrace correct beliefs. I pray and seek everything in the name of our Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ. Amen.”

Hi there my Brothers and Sisters in Christ! For most of my life, I viewed God as a wish granter. I approached Him with a list of needs and desires, treating Him as a celestial vending machine that dispensed blessings in response to my prayers. My relationship with God was transactional; I gave Him my reverence, and He granted my requests. I never knew Him deeper than that. I had a reverential fear of Him, compartmentalizing my life to keep my time with God separate from the rest of my existence. Little did I realize how much I was missing out on, and how this superficial relationship was causing me to suffer greatly.

In my ignorance, I kept God at arm’s length, not allowing Him to work in me. I was afraid of what He might ask of me, afraid of the changes He might bring. My life was filled with struggles, heartaches, and a sense of emptiness that I couldn’t quite pinpoint. I was going through the motions, living a segmented life where God was only a part of it, not the whole.

But God, in His infinite kindness and grace, never gave up on me. He patiently waited, gently nudging me to open my heart to Him fully. The greatest gift to humanity is undeniably Christ’s sacrifice on the cross, but lately, I have been realizing that God Himself is an even greater gift than that. This revelation has transformed my understanding and my relationship with Him.

I began to see God not just as a wish granter, but as a loving Father who desires an intimate relationship with His children. He is not just a deity to be feared but a friend to be cherished. God’s love for us is beyond comprehension, and His desire for us to know Him deeply is profound. He loves us so much that He gave His only Son, Jesus Christ, to die for our sins, but even beyond that, He gives us Himself.

One of the most awe-inspiring aspects of God’s love is that even when we continue to live in sin, we can still request His presence, and He honors it. This realization brought me to my knees. How could a perfect, holy God love a sinner like me so deeply that He would continue to draw near to me despite my flaws and failures?

Psalm 139:7-10 speaks to this incredible truth: “Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there. If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast.” These verses reminded me that God’s presence is inescapable, and His love is relentless.

As I started to open my heart to God, allowing Him into every corner of my life, I began to experience a transformation. No longer did I feel the need to compartmentalize my life. Instead, I invited God into every aspect of it—my joys, my sorrows, my successes, and my failures. I allowed Him to work in me, to mold and shape me according to His will.

This was not an easy process. It required vulnerability, trust, and a willingness to surrender control. But the more I let go, the more I found myself enveloped in God’s love and grace. I discovered that His plans for me were far greater than anything I could have imagined. Jeremiah 29:11 says, “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” These words became a beacon of hope for me, guiding me through the uncertainties and challenges of life.

In this journey, I learned that the greatest gift from God is not the blessings He bestows, but His very presence in our lives. The sacrifice of Jesus on the cross opened the way for us to have a personal relationship with God, but it is God Himself who is the ultimate gift. His presence brings peace that surpasses all understanding, joy that is unspeakable, and love that is unconditional.

One of the most beautiful aspects of God’s presence is that it is available to everyone, regardless of their past or present circumstances. Romans 5:8 says, “But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” This verse is a powerful reminder that God’s love is not contingent on our righteousness. He loves us despite our sins and invites us into a relationship with Him.

As I continue to grow in my relationship with God, I find myself continually in awe of His love and grace. I cannot stop adoring how much He loves a sinner like me. He meets me where I am, embraces me with open arms, and walks with me every step of the way. His presence is a constant source of strength, comfort, and guidance.

If you, too, have found yourself treating God as a wish granter, I encourage you to seek a deeper relationship with Him. Invite Him into every aspect of your life and allow Him to work in you. You will discover, as I have, that the greatest gift from God is God Himself. His love is transformative, His presence is life-changing, and His grace is boundless.

In the end, it is not the blessings we receive from God that matter most, but the intimate relationship we have with Him. The greatest gift from God is His unwavering presence in our lives, guiding us, loving us, and transforming us into the people He created us to be. May you experience this profound truth and be forever changed by the incredible love of God.

Jealousy towards people who took later salvation later

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“Father God, please guide me as I write this article based on Your Word. Help me to write this to glorify You, and let Your words bring clarity to those who seek You. May Your truth help people discern and embrace correct beliefs. I pray and seek everything in the name of our Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ. Amen.”

Hi there my Brothers and Sisters in Christ! In my walk with Christ, I recently experienced a profound transformation in my understanding of what it means to follow Him. For a long time, I harbored feelings of jealousy towards those who came to know Christ later in life. It was as if I saw myself in the role of the obedient son in the parable of the prodigal son (Luke 15:11-32), feeling slighted by the celebration of the returnees. This mindset, however, was rooted in a deeper misunderstanding of my faith.

A Reflection on My Early Christian Life
Growing up, I was surrounded by the love and teachings of Christ from a young age. My family was devout, and my childhood memories are filled with Sunday school lessons, church services, and the constant presence of God’s Word in our home. I memorized Bible verses, participated in church activities, and tried my best to live according to the teachings of Jesus. However, despite these blessings, I often found myself feeling burdened by the expectations and restrictions that seemed to accompany my faith.

This sense of burden only intensified as I grew older. I watched friends and acquaintances who lived without the constraints I felt, seemingly enjoying their freedom. Then, when some of these friends eventually accepted Christ later in life, I couldn’t help but feel a pang of jealousy. They had experienced the best of both worlds, or so I thought—living freely and then receiving the same grace and love from God that I had known all along.

The Parable of the Prodigal Son
My feelings resonated deeply with the story of the prodigal son, particularly with the older son who stayed home and obeyed his father (Luke 15:11-32). Just as the older son felt overlooked and undervalued despite his faithfulness, I felt a similar sentiment. Why did those who wandered away and returned receive such celebration, while my steady, albeit sometimes reluctant, journey seemed less acknowledged?

It wasn’t until I spent more time in prayer and reflection that God began to show me the deeper truth. Through the gentle nudging of the Holy Spirit, He revealed the fallacy in my thinking. The Bible reminds us in Matthew 11:28-30 that Christ’s yoke is easy and His burden light. My perception of a restricted lifestyle was not a reflection of God’s intention for His children, but rather a misunderstanding on my part. I had been focusing on the sacrifices required, rather than the immense love and freedom found in Him.

A Divine Conviction
In the stillness of prayer and through the gentle nudging of the Holy Spirit, God began to reveal the fallacy in my thinking. I realized that my perception of following Christ as a burden was not aligned with His teachings. In Matthew 11:28-30, Jesus invites us, saying, “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” These verses reminded me that the true essence of following Christ is not about burdens but about finding rest and peace in Him.

The Turning Point
One particular experience stands out as a turning point in my journey. It was during a quiet morning of personal devotion. I had been reading the Bible and came across the story of the workers in the vineyard in Matthew 20:1-16. In this parable, Jesus tells of a landowner who hires workers at different times throughout the day but pays them all the same wage. Those who worked the entire day grumbled, feeling it unfair that those who worked less received the same pay.

As I read this story, I felt a conviction in my heart. God was showing me that His grace and love are not measured by the length of time we have known Him but by His boundless generosity. The workers who came late received the same reward because God’s grace is abundant and not limited by human standards of fairness. This realization struck a chord with me, transforming my jealousy into understanding and gratitude.

Revelations in Fellowship
As I started to embrace and enjoy the fellowship with God, my perspective shifted dramatically. I began to understand that following Christ is not a burden but a blessing. Psalm 16:11 tells us, “You make known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand.” This newfound appreciation for God’s presence illuminated the true hardship faced by those who come to Christ later in life.

A Heart of Compassion
Reflecting on the lives of latecomers to faith, I realized they had spent significant portions of their lives without the fellowship, grace, and love of God. What I once viewed as an unfair celebration for new believers, I now see as a divine mercy—a joyous rescue from a lifetime devoid of God’s peace and love. My jealousy turned into compassion and gratitude. I felt sorrow for the years they lived without the joy I had taken for granted and gratitude for the privilege of knowing God from an early age.

This shift in perspective was further reinforced by my personal experiences. One evening, I attended a baptism service where several adults were being baptized. As I listened to their testimonies, I was deeply moved. Each story was a testament to God’s relentless pursuit and overwhelming grace. These individuals spoke of lives filled with pain, loss, and searching before they found peace in Christ. Their stories made me realize the true hardship they had endured—living without the fellowship of God for so many years.

Scriptural Insights
This transformation is not only personal but also deeply rooted in Scripture. Romans 8:28 assures us that “in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose.” I now see that my early relationship with God was part of His greater plan for my life, working all things for my good. Moreover, Jesus’ parable in Matthew 20:1-16 about the workers in the vineyard further solidified my understanding. Regardless of when they started working, all received the same wage, symbolizing the equal grace given to all believers, regardless of when they come to faith.

Embracing a New Perspective
This journey has taught me to celebrate every soul that comes to Christ, regardless of when they find Him. It has also taught me to be grateful for the years I have known Him and to cherish the fellowship, grace, and love I have experienced from a young age. God’s conviction has opened my eyes to the immense blessing of knowing Him from a young age and has filled my heart with compassion for those who come to faith later in life.

In John 10:10, Jesus says, “I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.” This fullness of life in Christ is something I have been privileged to know for many years, and for that, I am deeply grateful. I now see my journey not as a burden but as a testament to God’s enduring love and faithfulness.

Wrapping up
My journey from jealousy to gratitude has been a humbling and enlightening experience. God’s conviction has opened my eyes to the immense blessing of knowing Him from a young age and has filled my heart with compassion for those who come to faith later in life. I am now grateful for my journey and eager to celebrate every soul that finds its way to Christ, knowing that His grace is boundless and His love unfathomable. In the end, it is not about when we come to Christ, but that we come to Him at all, embracing the fullness of His love and grace. And for that, I am eternally thankful.

I am not Alone

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 “Father God, please guide me as I write this article based on Your Word. Help me to write this to glorify You, and let Your words bring clarity to those who seek You. May Your truth help people discern and embrace correct beliefs. I pray and seek everything in the name of our Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ. Amen.”

Hi there my Brothers and Sisters in Christ! I like to share a song sung by Kari Jobe, I am not Alone.  

Diving in

There was a time in my life when I felt utterly alone. My faith journey seemed solitary, and I struggled to find meaningful connections with others who shared my beliefs. But God, in His infinite wisdom, revealed to me a profound truth: I was never truly alone. He transformed my isolation into a rich fellowship, not just with people, but with the Holy Trinity. This is the story of how I went from feeling alone to being embraced by the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit, and how the Bible guided me through this journey.

The Loneliness of the Journey
Loneliness is a powerful and often painful experience. I remember feeling disconnected, yearning for a sense of belonging and support. It was during this time that I found solace in the Scriptures. Psalm 25:16-17 says, “Turn to me and be gracious to me, for I am lonely and afflicted. Relieve the troubles of my heart and free me from my anguish.” These words resonated deeply with me, reminding me that even in my loneliness, God was aware of my pain and ready to provide comfort.

The Promise of Fellowship with the Trinity
In the midst of my solitude, I clung to the promises of God. One of the verses that gave me hope was John 14:16-17, where Jesus says, “And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another advocate to help you and be with you forever—the Spirit of truth.” This verse reassured me that fellowship was not just a distant dream but a promise from Jesus Himself. I began to pray earnestly for a deeper relationship with God in all His fullness.

Experiencing the Presence of the Father
God answered my prayers in ways I could have never anticipated. He revealed Himself to me as a loving Father. Psalm 103:13 says, “As a father has compassion on his children, so the Lord has compassion on those who fear him.” I began to experience God’s love in a profound way, feeling His care and compassion in every aspect of my life. The Father’s love provided me with a sense of security and belonging that I had longed for.

Walking with Jesus Christ
At the same time, Jesus Christ became more real to me. John 1:14 tells us, “The Word became flesh and made his dwelling among us. We have seen his glory, the glory of the one and only Son, who came from the Father, full of grace and truth.” Jesus, in His grace, walked with me through my struggles, offering His forgiveness, guidance, and unwavering support. His grace was a constant reminder that I was never alone, even in my darkest moments.

Guided by the Holy Spirit
The Holy Spirit also played a crucial role in my journey. John 14:26 says, “But the Advocate, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you all things and will remind you of everything I have said to you.” The Holy Spirit became my constant companion, guiding me, teaching me, and empowering me to live a life that honors God. Through the Spirit, I found the strength to overcome my fears and doubts, and the wisdom to navigate life’s challenges.

The Trinity in Unity and Distinction
One of the most profound aspects of my fellowship with God was understanding the unity and distinction within the Trinity. Sometimes, they are One, an inseparable unity that envelops me in divine love and grace. Other times, they are Three, each Person of the Trinity supporting me in unique ways. The Father gives me love, Christ shows me His grace, and the Holy Spirit helps me in my walk. This dynamic relationship has enriched my faith and deepened my understanding of God’s nature.

The Joy of Shared Faith
One of the greatest joys of my fellowship with the Trinity is the shared faith I experience. Psalm 133:1 says, “How good and pleasant it is when God’s people live together in unity!” This unity with the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit brings a deep sense of joy and fulfillment. I worship God with a heart full of gratitude, knowing that I am embraced by the divine community.

The Strength in God’s Presence
Ecclesiastes 4:12 beautifully illustrates the strength found in numbers: “Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.” In my fellowship with the Trinity, I find unparalleled strength and support. The Father’s love grounds me, Jesus’ grace sustains me, and the Holy Spirit’s guidance empowers me. Together, they form a cord of three strands that cannot be easily broken.

The Power of Prayer
Prayer has become the lifeline of my relationship with the Trinity. James 5:16 reminds us, “Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person is powerful and effective.” Through prayer, I communicate with the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit, experiencing their presence and power in my life. This practice deepens my relationship with God and strengthens my faith.

Overcoming Challenges with the Trinity
My fellowship with the Trinity is not without its challenges. There are times when I struggle to feel connected or when life’s circumstances threaten to pull me away. However, I am reminded of Colossians 3:13, “Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you.” By practicing forgiveness and relying on God’s grace, I navigate through these challenges and emerge stronger.

The Role of the Holy Spirit
The Holy Spirit plays a crucial role in my fellowship with the Trinity. Jesus promised in John 14:16-17, “And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another advocate to help you and be with you forever—the Spirit of truth.” The Holy Spirit guides my thoughts, inspires my prayers, and unifies my heart with the Father and the Son. Through the Spirit’s guidance, my fellowship with God thrives.

The Impact on My Life
The impact of my fellowship with the Trinity extends beyond my personal faith journey. I am more equipped to share the love of Christ with others and to live out my faith in tangible ways. Acts 2:42 describes the early church, saying, “They devoted themselves to the apostles’ teaching and to fellowship, to the breaking of bread and to prayer.” Inspired by this model, I strive to live a life that reflects the love, grace, and power of the Trinity.

Wrapping up
My journey from loneliness to fellowship with the Trinity has been a testament to God’s faithfulness and the power of His presence. Through the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit, I have experienced the truth of Ecclesiastes 4:12, “A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.” If you are feeling alone in your faith journey, I encourage you to seek a deeper relationship with the Trinity. Pray for God to reveal Himself to you in all His fullness. Remember that you are never alone—God, in the unity and distinction of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit, is always with you.

In the end, I was alone, but now I have the fellowship of Three. And this fellowship has transformed my faith, my life, and my relationship with God. May you also experience the profound joy and strength that come from being in fellowship with the Trinity.






Struggling to Sketch

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“Father God, please guide me as I write this article based on Your Word. Help me to write this to glorify You, and let Your words bring clarity to those who seek You. May Your truth help people discern and embrace correct beliefs. I pray and seek everything in the name of our Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ. Amen.”

Hi there my Brothers and Sisters in Christ! In my recent blog posts, I’ve shared deeply personal experiences that have shaped my faith and understanding of Jesus. From the vivid dream where I saw Jesus to the profound realizations about His humanity, these encounters have left a lasting impact on my spiritual journey. Today, I want to share another significant experience—my struggle to capture Jesus in a sketch and the revelation that followed.

The Dream That Inspired

A few weeks ago, I had a dream that was both awe-inspiring and transformative. I saw Jesus in a way I had never seen Him before—His presence was overwhelmingly real and filled with a sense of profound love and compassion. This dream was not just a fleeting vision but a deep encounter that left me yearning to hold onto that image of Jesus. I felt compelled to capture His likeness on paper, hoping to keep the vision alive in my heart and mind.

The Struggle to Sketch

Despite my best efforts, sketching Jesus proved to be an incredibly challenging task. Over the course of several days, I made nearly twenty attempts, each time feeling more frustrated and disheartened. The image in my mind was clear when I closed my eyes, but translating that onto paper was an entirely different story. Each sketch felt inadequate, a mere shadow of the profound vision I had seen in my dream.

Seeking Understanding

In my frustration, I turned to God, asking why I was struggling so much to capture Jesus’ likeness. Why did each attempt feel so wrong? Why couldn’t I bring the image to life? As I prayed and reflected, a profound truth began to emerge. It wasn’t just about my lack of artistic skill; there was something deeper at play.

The Revelation

God revealed to me that my struggle was rooted in my attempt to create an idol. In my desire to hold onto the dream, I was trying to make a tangible representation of Jesus—a physical idol that I could see and touch. This realization hit me hard. Throughout the Bible, God warns against creating idols, emphasizing that our faith should be in Him, not in any physical representation. Exodus 20:4-5 clearly states, “You shall not make for yourself an image in the form of anything in heaven above or on the earth beneath or in the waters below. You shall not bow down to them or worship them.”

Faith Beyond Flesh

God’s intention was to deepen my faith and belief in Him through the dream. The vision of Jesus was meant to strengthen my spiritual connection, not to be confined to a sketch. By trying to capture Jesus on paper, I was relying on my flesh, my human abilities, rather than His Spirit. Romans 8:5 reminds us, “Those who live according to the flesh have their minds set on what the flesh desires; but those who live in accordance with the Spirit have their minds set on what the Spirit desires.”

Letting Go of Control

This revelation was both humbling and liberating. I realized that my desire to control and capture the vision was counterproductive to what God intended. He wanted me to trust in Him, to hold onto the faith and love that the dream had inspired, without needing a physical representation. It was a call to let go of my need for control and to surrender fully to His will.

A New Perspective

With this new understanding, I stopped trying to sketch Jesus. Instead, I focused on nurturing the faith that the dream had kindled. I spent more time in prayer, reading the Bible, and seeking His presence in my daily life. The image of Jesus in my mind became a symbol of faith rather than a project to be completed. It reminded me that God’s ways are higher than our ways and His thoughts higher than our thoughts (Isaiah 55:9).

Moving Forward in Faith

This experience has taught me a valuable lesson about faith and obedience. It has reminded me that God desires our hearts, our trust, and our faith in Him above all else. Physical representations can sometimes become stumbling blocks, distracting us from the true essence of our relationship with God. As 2 Corinthians 5:7 says, “For we live by faith, not by sight.”

Wrapping up

My journey of trying to sketch Jesus has been a powerful reminder that faith is not about what we can see or create with our hands, but about trusting in the unseen and believing in His promises. It has reinforced the importance of walking by faith and relying on His Spirit rather than our flesh. I hope that my experience will inspire others to seek a deeper connection with God, free from the constraints of physical representations and rooted in the boundless love and faith that He offers.

May we all continue to grow in our faith, trusting in the God who reveals Himself in ways beyond our understanding and who calls us to believe and have faith in Him, even when we cannot see.